You always find my faults faster than you find your own...

I wish I knew what the hell it was that I'm doing here. Just when I think I have control over myself, I have a slip.

It's this strong sense of independence and control that has left me unable to tell people with whom I am close what I'm feeling and only a small fraction of what I'm thinking.

I just can't let anyone as close as I have in the past. Hell, I won't even let myself that close. I guess I'm waiting for my own spring awakening. A time to thaw.

Unfortunately, it's that time of year when things just get colder.

Peace out.